The Dream

So, I had a dream last night after I got off of here. I dreamed that it was summer and I had gone for a walk. My phone was in my pocket, so I didn't feel too scared. I hate the dark with a passion, so I have to have some kind of light, or if I'm walking outside, I have to have my phone just in case.

But, anyways, I was walking down this street where the street lamp had gone out, and the next one wasn't for a ways down. I was walking, minding my own business, when all of a sudden, someone grabbed me from behind and threw me to the ground.

I was terrified, I didn't know what to do. I looked up and the guy had a baseball cap on and the shadow was covering his face. I don't know why there was a shadow, since there was no street lamp, but it was a dream, so anything could have happened.

Well, he took out a gun and pointed it at my chest. He fired one bullet into the air and another one right in the middle of my ribs. The pain was unbearable. It was getting harder and harder to bear it and breathe by the minute.

I guess he hadn't realized I had a phone, or was still conscious, because he just walked away. I shakily got out my cell phone and scrolled through my contacts. I didn't have to look very long because his name is the very last name in my contacts, so I just had to press up.

I called his cell phone thinking that he would either be on duty(he was working at the PD in my town) or just getting off. He answered on the fourth ring.

"Hello? Brittany(let's just say my name's Brittany)?" I was breathing deeply and it was hard to talk. "Hello? Brittany, are you there?" I nodded, and then remembered I was supposed to be talking on the phone.

"Yeah, Zerk, I'm here. Kind of." I guess my voice had sounded strange, and combine that if the fact that it took me so long to respond, he was a bit worried. "Brittany, are you okay?" I could heat his buddies in the background laughing at some unknown joke.

Zerk shushed them and returned to our conversation. "No, I'm not. Some guy shot me." I heard him gasp and open a car door. "Where are you? I'll come to you..Just tell me where you are. Are you alright? Are you applying pressure to the wound?" "I'm at the corner of....Wilson and Emerson Drive. And yes, I'm applying pressure." To be honest, I hadn't even thought of that, but I started to once he said it. Then I heard him call to his buddies. "Hey! I'm on the phone with a girl who's been shot. We need to get an ambulance to the corner of Wilson and Emerson Drive, stat!" Then he spoke into the phone, "I'm on my way, just hold tight. Keep talking to me, so that you don't pass out from blood loss. Why are you at the corner of Wilson this late at night, anyways?"

I gasped a little in pain. The pain was getting worse. "I went for a walk. Please hurry. I don't know how much longer I can keep myself conscious." I heard the sirens through the phone and coming towards me. "We're almost there, just hang on, Brittany. Everything's going to be okay."

I nodded, not having the energy to respond verbally. Then I saw the cop car whip around the corner and screech to a halt alongside of the curb. Zerk jumped out of the driver's side and ran towards me, shoving his phone into his pocket.

"Why didn't you call 911?" "Because I knew that if I had called you, it'd be faster and a more sure way that help would get here in time." He nodded and lifted up my shirt to see the wound. he had shot me right below where my bra stopped.

"Zerk, I have to tell you something. Especially if I don't make it." I really thought that I was going to die. He was sitting on the ground next to me and had moved my hand away so that he could apply more pressure to the wound. He pulled me towards his chest so that I was laying on his thighs and almost curled into his chest. One of his arms was wrapped around my shoulders, the other was keeping the pressure applied.

"Nothing's going to happen, I promise. You're not going to die. I won't let it happen." I shook my head. "You don't have any control over that, and you know it. You're just trying to make me feel better. But, I have to say this, just in case. Zerk, I...I..I love you. I love you, Zerk. I have for awhile now." His eyes widdened the tiniest bit and I faintly heard one of his buddies let out a whistle.

"Brittany," He said, looking into my eyes intently, "I love you too. I didn't realize how much until now, but I do." Then he placed his lips on mine and we shared one of those moments where you never want it to end. But, all too soon, it did. I could hear the ambulance getting closer. But it was getting much harder to breathe.

"Zerk, Zerk, I can't....it's too hard...I can't hold on any longer." After my sentence was over, it was like I switched point of views. I became a bystander, watching as my frail and bloodied body went limp and my eyes shut for what seemed would be the last time.

I almost started to hyperventilate as I watched myself die and Zerk yell and scream in pain, saying, "NO! She can't be dead! She can't! I promised her! NO!!" I started crying. It was just too much to take in. You could hear the pure agony in his words.

Then the ambulance came to a halt and the EMT's rushed out and got a bed. Zerk picked up my body and carried it to the back of the ambulance where he laid it down on the 'bed'. He looked up at the EMT's and said, "Save her. Now." He was terrified and he was ticked. He had just confessed his love and had it taken away all in a moment's notice.

The EMT's grabbed the paddles and charged them up. "Clear!" I could feel a rush of electricity surge through my body, even though I was watching it happen.

"Take it up! Again! Clear!" Another surge of electricity. They did this four more times and every time I felt the surge. And then they gave up hope. I was presumed dead. Until Zerk spoke up.

"No! One more time! One more time is all it'll take! I know it! Just do it! Now!" They looked at him in sorrow. "I'm sorry, pal. She's gone. There's nothing we can do." I felt my heart break in two. I was dead. "NO! There has to be something! DO IT AGAIN!" So they did, reluctantly.

I think they only did it so as not to get shot. Again, I felt the surge of electricity. Again, nothing happened.

"AGAIN! ONE MORE TIME! Please...She's all I have." They did it again. But this time, I not only felt the electricity, but I felt my heart start to pund once more. The EMT guys looked down in shock. "She's alive!" One of them said.

Zerk grabbed my hand and held on. I was still a bystander and could feel his hand in mine. It was warm and familiar.

They strapped me down to the bed and put me into the ambulance and Zerk followed suit. Without even moving my feet, I was all of a sudden sitting next to Zerk in the ambulance. He was staring at my body with tears in his eyes.

When we arrived at the hospital and were walking inside, I disappeared and became the one of me that was strapped to the bed, holding Zerk's hand. And that's when I awoke in my dream. He was letting go of my head, but I grabbed it and said, "No, don't leave me!" "I have to, but I won't leave the hospital. I promise. You're going to be fine. I'll see you when you get out of surgery. Okay?" I nodded and let go of his hand. But before they carted me away, he leaned down and kissed me on the lips, just a gently kiss, but one none-the-less.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Kirsten run up to Zerk with Matt hot on her heels. I waved at Zerk and he waved back, and then turned and started to explain to Kirsten and Matt.

My dream went black for awhile, but then I 'woke up' in a hospital room, where Zerk was holding my hand and my mom was sleeping on the couch. Kirsten was sitting in the chair at the foot of the bed, doing homework. I looked over at Zerk and realized he was asleep as well.

My wound hurt a bit, but I was alive, I had found the love of my life, and I had family and friends here who were worried about me. Life was good, well except the hole in my chest, but you know what I mean. I was at peace, finally.

I smiled to myself and looked around at the people who were here. I knew that there were more of my friends and family who probably wanted to be here, but couldn't or didn't know about it or had already been up to 'see' me. So, I was happy and content.

And that's where I woke up in real life. It was a pretty intense dream, if I do say so myself. But I've heard that if you die in your dreams, you die in real life. Well, I guess I really didn't die, because right before I 'died' I became a bystander. And they also revived me, so I guess..that doesn't count? I don't know.

If anyone has any ideas as to what that dream meant, please share them with me. I would love to know! I really would. I'm confused by that dream a little bit, but oh well. I'll try to update again tomorrow. I'm trying to make this an everyday thing and update you on my 'troubles or praises with 'love''. So, it is almost eleven-thiry at the moment and I am exhausted. So, I am going to go to bed. Good night everyone, I hope you have better luck with love than I do. But hey, it could be worse, right? ;)